I Lay My Heart Down

I lay my heart down today
Asking God to help me pray
Asking for guidance and love
The only kind He can provide from above

I lay my heart down today
Pleading with God for this pain to fade
I asked for Christ in my life
Instead of all the hurt and strife

I lay my heart down today
Asking God to make everything okay
I asked for this pain to leave
To help me except Him and believe

I lay my heart down today
knowing in my heart He would stay
Asking God to please forgive me
Put this heart together, through all the debris

I lay my heart down today
I now except He is the Potter, and I the clay
I will never leave my King of Kings
I will praise him and I will sing

Because I lay my heart down today
I never thought the pain would sway
My Father saved me by His grace
Forever in His arms I will embrace

-Monica Delgado 02/24/2005

The Reason for Everything

"Everything comes from God alone. Everything lives by his power, and everything is for his glory" -Romans 11:36 Today I read Chapter 7 of The Purpose Driven Life, and was utterly amazed. Amazed how they said The ultimate goal of the universe is to show the glory of God.
We can do that by many things, it even discussed them. I know that we can glorify him in everything we do. By being kind to others, worshiping God, loving other believers, becoming like Christ, serving others, and especially letting others know about our Father. I think I can do several, and I know that God is leading me so that I can tell others about Christ. I have to not be nervous or afraid, just let God use me. I definately want to go to evangelism classes. Hopefully when I get back on the day shift I can do that.

Another awesome point in the book is that this is the chapter that leads people to Christ. It asks Who are you going to live for? Yourself or God? I definately want to live my life for Christ and fullfill my purpose for Him. Not for me. Because like chapter 6 said, this is not my home!!!! Its so wonderful, because this chapter also talks about believeing in Christ, receiving Jesus in our life, and discovering and starting to live for God!!! I know so many who have read this book and have accepted Christ in their hearts! That is awesome!!!!!!

I hope yall don't mind but I wanted to add the Thinking About My Purpose, for those who haven't read the book at the end of each chapter it has a thinking about my purpose. I really recommend everyone pick up this book! They have them everywhere!

The Point to Ponder: It's all for Him.

Verse to Remember: "For everything comes from God alone. Everything lives by his power, and everything is for his glory." -Romans 11:36

Question to Consider: Where in my daily routine can I become more aware of God's glory?

For the question I would definately say at the workplace. It is so hard to remember to live Christ-like when you have someone yelling in your ear. I would also say when I get home, I really want to read more of the Bible. I want to make sure that I pray more as well. Just being in God's presence and speaking to him, its wonderful....I want more of that!!! Take care and God Bless!!!!

"Unless you are faithful in small matters, you won't be faithful in large ones." - Luke 16:10

I truly believe that I am having an awful week because I am trying to live a Christian life and follow God's word. I have never had a worse week. When we are getting closer with God, obstacles begin to come in our way. I must continue to pray for peace and pray for God to help me through. I was talking to my friend yesterday about this. How when you try to get closer with the Lord thats when all the trials pile on. Does this sound familiar? When you are trying to walk on the right track, something always gets in the way and it gets harder. Something always trys to tempt you back to your "old self"ways. I am definately going through this. Even though this is happening, I always have to remember to pray. Prayer is the only thing that can get us through. The only thing that can help us. Why? Because that is our communcation with God. But, I am sure yall knew that!!! Hee hee.

I wrote this before I read The Purpose Driven Life. I just read Chapter 5, Seeing Life from God's View. In this chapter it talks about how life on earth is a test. "God continually tests people's character, fatih, obedience, love, integrity, and loyalty." Isn't it amazing that exactly what I am going through, I read a chapter about it! God is awesome!!!! I love how He is always there, and lets me know what He is trying to tell me!!!! Awesome Awesome Awesome!!!!! Thank you Lord for letting me realize that. I was trying to figure out on my own what was going on, and You lead me in the right direction. Thank you!!!!

I will not be able to go to church today. My Dad is in town and he will be leaving tomorrow. I haven't seen him in months and I am so glad he is here. I love being able to talk to my dad about God. Its awesome! He used to teach an adult Sunday school class and he really enjoyed it. Hopefully the move to New Mexico will lead him back to teaching. Something to definately pray about.

I cannot wait to get a new job and be off this night shift. It will be hard adjusting again, but I will definately get to be more involved with church. I hope everyone has a wonderful week!!! Take care and God Bless!!!!!

EDIT- I feel as though I am getting sick. My throat is so sore and I feel so tired. I don't like being sick! Yall have a good Sunday!

"I am your Creator. You were in my care even before you were born." -Isaiah 44:2

I was having another bad day. This woman said some mean things to me, and I was so ready to just walk out the door. Instead I said a prayer. Then my next call I had the sweetest person in the world!!! Isn't it amazing how God can lift you up when you are feeling at your worst. I love that!!! Thank you Lord!!!!

I read Chapter 2 last night from The Purpose Driven Life and it really had me thinking. The chapter was about, "We are not an Accident." So many times I have felt that way. Like there is no reason why I am on this earth! Why didn't God just let me go when I was 8 and the doctors didn't know what was wrong with me? I have a blessed life. I am not an accident. Sometimes I struggle to accept how I am, like my personality. I wish I was more outgoing, or less shy. God made me the way I am for His purpose. I am His daughter and I am in His image. I wouldn't want to change anything. I realize that now.

I am really excited because in 3 days I finally get my Soul Food!!!

"Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you" -Matthew 5:44

Currently I am having a bad night. I had the most obsene call. That is the one thing I hate about working call centers in the dead of night. I hate having to be objected to obsene people. I had one tonight, who said the most discusting thing. I told my supervisor and he was awesome about it. He is letting the big wigs know for him to stop calling.

I just felt so insignifigant. I had to even take a break, I cried.......but mostly prayed. I asked God to calm my heart and to help me breath. Feel His presence and hold me. Believe it or not, I felt Him. I felt Him giving me a hug. I prayed for myself as well as the person saying these obsene things to me. I was so hurt. Sometimes I wonder if this is the right place to be. This past month I have had numerous people saying things like this man did. Maybe my heart just got heavy and I really needed to pray. I was reluctant to pray for this man, but I knew in my heart that he needed it. I know that God says to pray for your enemies. I did just that.

I know God is always there, and I know I am His daughter, and I love that. I have noticed today that I am His and He cares so much for me. I know that when I am hurt, He hurts. But my hurt and pain is taken away, with just one prayer. He lets me feel His loving arms holding me, telling me everything will be ok. To just embrace Him. I love you Lord!!!!! Thank you!!!!!!! As I sit here at my desk in tears, I feel you. I feel your presence, I feel your love. Thank you Lord!!!!! Thank you for being my Father, my creator, my first Love!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU LORD!!!!!!
I am feeling better, but needed to get this out. Thanks for listening.

I hope everyone enjoyed their day of love. It was wonderful for me. I finally got The Purpose Driven Life book. Hien and I decided yesterday that we would both read it together. That way we can share what we think and grow together. Plus it says in the book that its good to do it with a partner. I have heard from so many that its an awesome book! Now I finally get to read it! I got Hien some white chocolate kitkats and a rose. Nothing big, cause we aren't into all that. Like Sim's dad says, "Why do you need one special day out of the year for love? It should be everyday!" I definately agree. Hien got me "Big Girls Don't Whine" by Jan Silvious. Its an awesome book, I was reading it, but he spilled Dr. Pepper all over it on Sunday, so it wasn't readable. Its an awesome book!!! It talks about being dependent and uses Biblical wisdom to understand certain things. I won't get the actual book for about 5 days, he ordered it online.

I have been thinking alot about things. Mainly church. I love Josh and Tram's church, but I find myself holding back. Yet again. I think its because I am afraid I will not be able to be active in the church. I work night shift and most of the things going on are after 6pm. I go to work at 8pm. I have been looking for a new job though, so that I can get back on the day shift. I applied online to this one. Its actually just a couple of miles up from where I work now. Hopefully they will call me back. With God's help I am sure that will happen.

Well everyone I hope yall have an awesome day! Take care and God Bless!!!!
Thought this was cute: G.A.P. - God Answers Prayers

God gave us the most important, ultimate Valentine, which is Jesus Christ.

Hey everyone, today is Sunday and I am really happy that I have church today. I am very blessed because my two buddies from work are coming with me!!! Michelle and Jessica thanks so much for joining me! I know we will have a wonderful time!

I know that I need my weekly soul food, and going to church is the best way to get it. I am really needing to go since I am kind of dealing with alot. I am really happy because a prayer of mine has been answered. I prayed for my mom, she is not looking forward to the move to New Mexico. (All of the kids are staying in Dallas) She was really depressed and sort of blaming my dad for the move (his job was relocated). It has been a really hard couple of months. I also sent her an ecard with some verses and just told her that we all are going to miss her very much, we love her, and she has to be with my dad. So, I prayed about it and I talked to her today. She said that she got my ecard, and that she knows she has to go, and that she is going to put it in God's hands. Praise God! Its been so hard for her to go. We all understand, and now finally she is just going to go, and enjoy His blessings! Its amazing!!! I hope everyone has a wonderful Sunday!!!! GOD BLESS!!!!

Edit - Aww, I really miss my Dad!!!! He is already in New Mexico, awaitng my moms arrival. I just had a little memory about him. Gosh guys please pray for me, I don't know if I can be away from my parents. They are both like my best friends, and I just really miss them! :( Its so hard!!!!